04122014

想想
覺得滿可怕的
有個人跟妳談了戀愛生活將近兩年
然後他說了一些謊 留了一些眼淚
喝了很多酒
過了一陣子
消失在這個世界上

妳才想起
某一個瞬間
曾經是那麼乾淨無暇純粹的

truly believe

hey dear
i wish you can hear i calling you this way.
i wish you love
life still go on , i am still truly believe
even i know maybe someday, everything can change suddenly.
just like the day, you said we have to stop
i don't know.
in the way I understand you, you may take all of thing back,i know you will.
whatever it goes.

i will truly , hope you have a great life
truly love you. unconditional love
all i can give
(but why,why you have to leave me :(  )
J
for J

babe,I let you go

babe Jeremy bitch
tonight you are not my babe anymore. I guess
it really really really really sad to let you go
but i have to let you go
I could need you anymore
because you don't need me anymore.
I really hope there is a line between us,but actually we can't control it
I always hope my life can happen thing in romantic way.
I am romantic .
I know there is an angel always by you side .
sometimes you lost but you can always find the way out.
I love you .
good bye.
Love tear us apart

Jean

6 March ,Thursday.I hate thurday

Hello sweetie Jeremy bitch.
I felt I lose you, really lose you.

The balance we have is fading out, I put too much weight on my side but there is not  support strut  between us.
 I lean on my side only me and myself, my loneliness.
and you are already far far away
You move on.
I still hard to understand how to move on all of these.
you keep on saying after few months I will have different though about those,these.
how come?

I still can't get it.
I felt my world is collapsed and trying to re-build ,once i felt better, it would  be collapsed again.
all I can do is stay quiet ,silence and finding peace.
I lose the interest about social activity, I put a distance between people and me, I barely to talk ,I am bored,I am boring,it is boring.

I think I am totally lose in some way some how.

I can never write you anything I guess.
from now on
I got lots thing must to quit ,like cigarette,facebook,candy, and you 
everything become burdens to disturb you life ,i guess.
you move on
maybe it is the better way.
wish you cool and well ,always.

always.

love
kiss
good night

The puzzle you-self

2013/8/4 midnight ,Brisbane

It is the first time I feel useless about "Compassionate " today.

Just like even you understand all the things/mind/thoughts from people .

Still you can't fix anything between you and people even you are compassionate.

The way we do things,It accumulates circustanding which you grow up ,your family education, your background culture....etc.

Day by Day ,you piece all of the things together like put the puzzle together consciously or unconsciously .

In the end, You are the puzzle by you own  

And you confuse yourself all the time.